He provided

So about mid June I budgeted to make sure we had enough money in our account to pay all of our bills and everyday necessities.  What I came to realize is that our money was less than what our bills were...or a least very close!  At this same time God was teaching me to trust more in him and less in myself, so because of the recent lesson of having faith in God I chose not to stress too much about it.  I knew that God would provide because He is very faithful.  Let me just say that time can make you forget a lot about God's Faithfulness and I think that is what happened. I can't say that I totally was like "no God I know you can't take care of my bills for me." I didn't intentionally think I was not trusting God, but when I started trying to find ways to make my own money to make sure we had a good cushion was when I stopped trusting God and trusting more in myself.  There is a quote by Andrew Murray in his book Humility that helps put me in my place,  "Humility, the place of entire dependence on God, is, from the very nature of things, the first duty and the highest virtue of the creature, and the root of every virtue."  I was not being humble and I was not letting God be my God by not trusting in his good nature.  I am to place my entire dependence on God.  I will never be disappointed if I trust in God, He is forever faithful.

Despite all of this God is more than faithful.  First, I bought a raffle ticket who knows when for $1. I didn't want to buy it but he kept asking and kept begging me to buy it so I did, never thinking I would win anything.  BUT in the midst of all my worrying I got a phone call that said I had won a $25 American Express Gift Card.  So pretty much I can spend the money wherever I needed to.  Second, after all the bills went out Shawn and I still had plenty of money left over.  God is so faithful and if I would only trust in him with all my heart I would not have to deal with so much stress.  

I am so thankful for God's grace over our lives. He knows that we are not perfect and still need to learn

more and more everyday and his grace is what allows us to do this. Thank you.