Anxiety

I've been anxious lately for no real reason. I am not in school right now and I am able to fill my summer schedule with whatever my heart pleases. But still I've found myself bouncing my leg like anxious people do when they are waiting in line for something they really don't want to be waiting in line for. I guess really I just want to be done with this part of my life...school. I always go through a season of wanting to be further along in the future than I am and I always have to remember what my director in Master's Commission said once, "Be here now". Ugh, one of the hardest things for me to do. If it was up to me I would be done with school because I like to do things fast, (for sure one of my biggest flaws).

Lots of things on the "wish I was in the future list" like,

1. Have a baby
2. Buy a house
3. Move to a different country
4. Get a job
5. Go see The Help (haha, but really I can't wait)
6. Find a new job right now
7. Become a rock star or movie star, I'll take either one

To name a few.

But no worries I am working hard to stay in the now. I know it'll do me good, learning how to be patient and to do things slower. Plus I am not ready to be and do all those things on my list. I have a lot of learning to do before then and I am happy for that. I don't mind learning new things if it will make me better.

I am going to Austin, TX for a week and I'm really excited!