Intensions are not enough

I am learning that just because I want to do good isn't enough!!! Oh if only it were, I could be great.  No I must act on the good I want to do.  I listened to a podcast that said that sometimes  people pray just to feel better about the bad things they do, they have no intension of changing or even wanting to change, they just simply want to feel better in that moment.  I think I may be at fault for doing this.  The other day I wasted a whole afternoon watching The Big Bang Theory! A whole afternoon! Like hours! I felt so bad and lazy and complacent and blah.  I went to bed and then the next day on the way to work I felt convicted and prayed the whole way, not because I didn't want to, because I love hanging out with God, but mainly because I felt bad about wasting my life.  I had no intension of changing I just was praying to feel better about myself.  Ugh, so selfish. It's things like this that really makes we want to change.  I don't want to be complacent with no purpose in my life.  I know it's only because of the grace of God that we can do anything for him, so I will rely on and depend on his presence to guide me through this change in my life.

Side note: It doesn't feel like Christmas yet.  I probably need to be in Gettysburg, in that wonderful house I grew up in, where Christmas is in every nook and cranny.  I need to bake cookies with my sisters, I need the weather to be cold, I need to feel the excitement of giving my gifts to my family.  I need to hug each and everyone of them.  20 long days until this can happen! Until then, lesson plans, grading papers, becoming a better person, parties, parties, parties, making gifts, and of course baking!
To help you truly understand the wonderful house I grew up in, here is a picture!